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Sentimental Craving For Beauty

by VEiiLA

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pf22 I discovered VEiiLA via the YouTube video of “Can’t Forgive Myself” and was immediately entranced. With vocals that range from breathy and reverb-drenched to raw and insistent, with crystalline guitar phrases and hooks, plus low frequency beats/synths that will rattle your windows and annoy your neighbours, this album is beautifully dark and draws you deep into its own world of atmospheric introspection. Favorite track: Can't Forgive Myself.
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Venus In Furs My god this is a masterpiece... Captivating and very original brooding melodies and vocals that ride on each others peaks beautifully. Take a trip into a world that merges Portishead and Tricky with darkwave undertones in a really unique way. I honestly think this is going to be the best selling album Projekt has ever released. Sam's nose for stellar talent has only grown more sharp... Favorite track: Made Of Air.
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ernstlat mostuly chill album, female voices, nice for erotic sessions; "I Had a Dream" has a powerful electronic passage - love it Favorite track: I Had A Dream.
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1.
Can't forgive my... Can't forgive my... How can you stand yourself How can you When I buy the lies you sell Does it see you through Don't fool don't fool don't fool yourself You just repeat what someone said Don't fool don't fool don't fool yourself There's only one regret Can't forgive my... Can't forgive my... How could I have been so blind Such a hypocrite I messed up the wrong the right You're so full of it Don't fool don't fool don't fool yourself You've lost your chance to overtake Don't fool don't fool don't fool yourself There's only one mistake Take take take take Can't forgive myself Can't forgive myself Can't forgive myself Can't forgive myself
2.
I had a friend His name was solitude He could understand me Better than anyone could That link was broken Too many people inside my head They never stop talking Maybe they'll stop only when I'm dead I had a dream But time has taken its toll So it would seem The stone was bound to fall I kissed goodbye Too so many beautiful dreams And the night's crawling by And the voices turn into screams I had a fire A fire that burnt through my chest It burnt my desires Isn't a brilliant jest So are they just mocking me Them good merry people inside my head That never stop talking And probably won't even when I'm dead I had a dream I had a dream I had a dream I had a Dream
3.
Am I a broken toy if I just can't find The right way the right way Everyone around me is color blind Do I go do I stay Maybe it'll never be the same Maybe I'll never see that day But I'll make it happy Maybe it'll be divine Maybe I'll never see the light But I'll make it happy Am I a broken toy if I just don't see The red light the stop line What is wrong with me if I can't fit in With my tribe with my kind Maybe it'll never be the same Maybe I'll never see that day But I'll make it happy Maybe it'll be divine Maybe I'll never see the light But I'll make it happy Happy day Happy day Am I a broken toy if I just can't find The right way the right way Am I broken toy if I can't go blind It's my way it's my way Am I a broken toy Happy day Happy day... I'm losing my ground I'm losing my ground Am I a broken toy
4.
Another Day 03:44
I wish I were as strong as once I thought I was I wish I could allow myself to take a pause To touch the ground and bounce up And take your hand and find the words to cheer you up But every night I'm searching in my mind For something I can say To live another day And every day I'm running out of lines I just pretend I'm fine And what I do I'm lying to you And I'm lying to myself There's nothing I can do There's nothing to be said And I'm lying to you And I'm lying to myself Cause if we don't believe Then we're already dead And I'm lying to myself I'm lying to you I'm lying to myself I'm lying to you I wish I could erase it all and start anew Adjust the angle for a better point of you And break the spell breath in the air And look into your eyes and see that you're not scared But every night I'm searching in my mind For something I can say To live another day And every day I'm running out of lines I just pretend I'm fine And what I do I'm lying to you And I'm lying to myself There's nothing I can do There's nothing to be said And I'm lying to you And I'm lying to myself Cause if we don't believe Then we're already dead And I'm lying to myself I'm lying to you I'm lying to myself I'm lying to you
5.
Furnace 03:23
Some things stay Some are easily forgotten But when it comes to pain It's always new, it's always bright And when the new waves rise It takes me by surprise But after all those years Why do I even bother In the chamber of my mind I try in vain to cut the binds In the furnace of my soul I burn my hopes like black coal In the oven of my heart I hope to turn my pain to art But in the end when I'm alone I wonder why I'm cold as stone Some say time heals I find it hard to believe Cause when it comes to pain There's always a new trick up its sleeve And when the new waves rise It takes me by surprise But after all that pain How do I even feel it In the chamber of my mind I try in vain to cut the binds In the furnace of my soul I burn my hopes like black coal In the oven of my heart I hope to turn my pain to art But in the end when I'm alone I wonder why I'm cold as stone In the chamber of my mind I try in vain to cut the binds In the furnace of my soul I burn my hopes like black coal In the oven of my heart I hope to turn my pain to art But in the end when I'm alone I wonder why I'm cold as stone
6.
Cool 03:54
I see right through you You got no clue You think you play me While I play you Inside you're rotten Don't waste your time, yeah Rules, yeah, you got 'em Not me cause I'm I'm Tired of your bogus exultations Sick of your caustic implications I see that baby you've got patience, but I'd rather drop this conversation Cause I know you're Cool, Cool, I I I know you're Cool, Cool, I I I know you're Cool, Cool, I I I know you're Cool, Cool, I I I I know you're I see right through you I'm not a fool You're always guessing You're always cool Your nerve is iron Your poise sublime But here's the irony You've missed that I'm I'm Cause I know you're Cool, Cool, I I I know you're Cool, Cool, I I I know you're Cool, Cool, I I I know you're Cool, Cool, I I I I know you're Cool
7.
Out of side and out of mind All those years I left behind One more try to get it right It's getting harder harder harder Push the pedal to the floor Make me cry and beg for more Words mean nothing anymore Just push it harder harder harder Cause all I want is get away Rip it hard drive me fast All the way All the way All the way Cause all I want is get away Rip it hard drive me fast All the way All the way All the way Cause all I want is get away Get away get away get away Cause all I want is get away Get away get away get away There's a chance we gotta take it Time won't last another second I can't wait I can't wait no It hits me harder harder harder Push the pedal to the floor Make me cry and beg for more Words mean nothing anymore Just push it harder harder harder Cause all I want is get away Rip it hard drive me fast All the way All the way All the way Cause all I want is get away Rip it hard drive me fast All the way All the way All the way Cause all I want is get away Rip it hard drive me fast All the way All the way All the way
8.
I'm closing the door I'm facing myself I'm closing myself I'm facing the wall I'm waiting inside I'm biding my time I'm leaving behind What burdens my mind Farewell Farewell Farewell Do you hear me Are you just hiding inside Do you hear me ahh Are you just hiding are you just hiding Do you hear me Are you just hiding inside Do you hear me ahh Are you just hiding are you just hiding I'm closing the door I'm facing myself I'm closing myself I'm facing the wall Do you hear me Are you just hiding inside Do you hear me ahh Are you just hiding are you just hiding Do you hear me Are you just hiding inside Do you hear me ahh Are you just hiding are you just hiding Do you hear me (farewell) Are you just hiding inside Do you hear me ahh (farewell) Are you just hiding are you just hiding Do you hear me (farewell) Are you just hiding inside Do you hear me ahh (farewell) Are you just hiding are you just hiding
9.
Made Of Air 04:44
The roads are frozen But I've gone too far I can see with my eyes closed What they are I can hear them calling I can feel their touch I'm fading slowly Did I ask too much But my heart ain't broken And my dream ain't lost I have got my body I am not a ghost But then why does it feel Like I'm made of air Like nobody sees me Like I'm not even there But my heart ain't broken And my dream ain't lost I have got my body I am not a ghost But then why does it feel Like I'm made of air Like nobody sees me Like I'm not even there My heart's still beating But my mind goes amiss And the voices whisper From the dark abyss I must fight temptation But I'm giving in To disintegration To the void within But my heart ain't broken And my dream ain't lost I have got my body I am not a ghost But then why does it feel Like I'm made of air Like nobody sees me Like I'm not even there But my heart ain't broken And my dream ain't lost I have got my body I am not a ghost But then why does it feel Like I'm made of air Like nobody sees me Like I'm not even there
10.
Today we breathe Today we choose To live, to love To fight Against the whole world Against the whole world Isn't beautiful My... Do you see this chaos Do you taste the menace This is what we're made of Keep breathing Keep breathing We can win this fight We can win this fight The ocean surrounds us The last ray of light Ocean Hey, hey Ain't gonna tell you how I'm tired no There goes my smile It's always there For anybody but myself But myself But myself...
11.
Six weeks passed I care for no one Everyone who knows me knows it Yesterday I couldn't sleep Today I can't wake up I can't recall the smell of roses Everyone who knows me knows it I'm in the quicksand way too deep It never seems to stop Six years passed I still need no one Everyone who knows me knows it I don't even ask myself anymore What I'm living for Yeah, I'm not sure there is a meaning I guess I should stop dreaming There is no one out there Behind that door Common decency Keeps me company But she's a fickle friend to ask too much And what of memory My only enemy Because of her alone I'm losing touch Common decency Keeps me company But she's a fickle friend to ask too much And what of memory My only enemy Because of her alone I'm losing touch I won't give in I won't give in I won't give in I'm giving in I won't give in I won't give in I won't give in I'm giving in I'm giving in I'm giving in I'm giving in
12.
My Blues 04:30
My blues Beyond my control Yeah, them blues Beyond my control They will watch me drown In the sea of moonlight Yeah, they watch me drown In the sea of moonlight Never give up They say Never give up They pray Never give up They say Never give up Never give up Never give up They say Never give up They pray Never give up They say Never give up Never give up This silence tortures me These walls smother me They look they grin Without within This silence tortures me These walls smother me They laugh they sweat What's that?. They say give up Oh, no, they don't They say Something else Never give up They say Never give up They pray Never give up They say Never give up Never give up Never give up They say Never give up They pray Never give up They say Never give up Never give up
13.
Never have I ever felt so Sick to the bone, sick to the bone Never have I ever felt so Sick to the bone, sick to the bone I see paradise in my wicked dreams I open my eyes and I can't take it in I see paradise in my wicked dreams I open my eyes and I can't take it in I'm falling I'm falling I'm falling I'm falling I'm falling down Into the darkest night And when I touch the ground Will you be by my side Have I lost my last chance A-a-a-a When words stop making sense Will you still follow me If this is our last chance Let's hold our hands

about

Genres: Dark Cold Wave, Downtempo, Alternative Pop, Electronic, Bleak House, Dream Pop, Trip Hop, Witch House
For Fans Of: Emika, The XX, Zola Jesus, Sevdaliza
Hometown: Vanadzor, Armenia

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VEiiLA is pronounced "Vay-la." It's a stylized reference to a Baltic mountain-dwelling demon that lures men into her cave by singing and then devours them.
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Creating beauty and passion out of harrowing despair comes easy for Russians-in-exile VEiiLA. With immaculate electronics, slow rhythms, and female vocals flush with late-night sensuality, the duo of Bes and Vif crafts an entwining melancholia with devastating existential lyrics.

VEiiLA's second studio album, SENTIMENTAL CRAVING FOR BEAUTY, is the artistic equivalent of a Venus flytrap — hidden under seductive layers of mellow electronics, translucent guitars, soft enthralling percussion, synth bass and Vif's tantalizing, alluring vocals dwell the paralyzing vapors of venomous despair, hopelessness and ultimate surrender to the unavoidable and inevitable pain of human existence.

Disguised as relaxing downtempo music, VEiiLA leans towards Schopenhauerian pessimism where one does not conquer the pain; verily submission to pain is the only answer to a world that is made of suffering.

This grim outlook isn't based on mere musings of the poet's soul. When Russia invaded Ukraine, not willing to support the ugly war and the horrible autocratic regime, Vif Nüte and Bes Eirid packed their lives in a couple of suitcases, left their homes and embarked on a journey without destination. Calling themselves in the fashion of the late Kurt Vonnegut “a band without a country,” as modern Russian dissidents they taste the bitter liquor of disappointment blended with a healthy dose of morbid, soul-crushing realization: the world is in fact as ugly as it gets.

What followed was a period of wandering through Armenia living in strange hotels and apartments and slowly drowning in depression.

At the time of their exodus VEiiLA had half an album recorded. There was the name too, SENTIMENTAL CRAVING FOR BEAUTY, which (traditionally a literary reference, this time to Galsworthy's Forsyte Saga) initially meant something bright and hopeful to the band.

Having their life shattered in pieces, however, it also put some distance between the artists and their creative work. In short, nothing made sense anymore. And so the album was thrown into the fire. After a while though, new inspiration came, new songs were written and the line “sentimental craving for beauty” appeared to present a different side: when everything falls into ruin, when nothing good is left, the only thing that keeps one going is this craving.

Thus the album rose from the ashes in a purer rectified form.

Musically VEiiLA charted a new direction, re-inventing their style with a bare minimalist palette of sounds. Instead of taking a well-worn path of lush studio production, Vif and Bes focused on writing songs that could be played live in real time with their own four hands, a drum machine and a vocal looper. This resulted in a stripped down production with only a few occasional extra layers. The recent addition of electric guitar with Vif's distinct yet subdued styling added fresh textures to their sound.

This updated minimalism cleared even more space for the intimate vocals' hypnotic swirl, murmuring their introspective allegories of universal indifference and lost hope.

As VEiiLA themselves put it: “We wanted to simply find some ground and not fall into the abyss. We just couldn't breathe, couldn't sleep, and we needed something not to go insane. So we spent more time playing the instruments and less time staring at the screen, and somehow the album wrote itself. It was a good distraction. Is it more than that? Maybe it will speak to someone, inspire someone, or at least make some miserable wretch across the globe — who like Steppenwolf is torn between fear and the razor — feel less lonely, knowing that there are at least two souls of the same sort on this planet.”

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released September 8, 2023

** Includes 20-page lyric booklet pdf download

Echoes Radio’s September CD of the Month. Excerpt from Review: “The Sound of Beautiful Alienation. “To say that VEiiLA is melancholic would be an understatement. But rarely is alienation rendered so beautifully and in such an original, compelling fashion. The band has called their sound ‘music for introverts,’ but it could just as well be music for the depressed, the forlorn and the oppressed. Nüte sings in a voice that can be fragile, sultry, domineering, sarcastic and heartbreaking. Their sound design is one of the most original I’ve heard.” echoes.org/2023/09/04/echoes-sept-cd-of-the-month-veiila/

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